ok, as you have all figured out I am what we call here "under the ice"
as in not functioning
as in really sick
depression is eating away at me as I cannot do any of the things i need to do, my work is suffering, my home life is suffering, my KIDS are suffering.
the heavy epilesy medication I am taking helped some but not enough against the pain in my face ( trigeminus) and the side effects are crippling with enormous exhaustion
love my doctor
1 fas out the medication (tegretol) that takes 3-5 weeks, during that time my pain will increase :(
2 then introduce a new medication, lyrica, which also may help my generalised pain, it is used to treat fibromyaligia in the States and it should help the trigeminus, it also helps anxiety.
3 referal to a pain specialist
4 referal to a fibromyalgia specialist (apparently we have moved away from the nervous exhaustion/ adrenal exhaustion theory to a fibro diagnosis)
5 he will be following me closely and I am to contact him if my depression is getting out of control, he doesn't want to treat it now as it is reactive, as in totally normal under the circomstanses. He wants to remove the cause if at all possible.
6 I continue losing weight to releive the stress on my joints, 8 kilos down now....
I love having a plan, it makes coping so much easier for me, like i have some control over this garbage
I owe one lovely lady a package, I am so sorry... it is in my mind, I know what I want to send, I just can't get myself in gear to get it done.... first Christmas, now Easter... maybe if I am lucky it will be sent soon , I really hope so ....
my lovely friends... I am so sorry to be moaning... I just want to keep you in the loop